December 3, 2014


Friends and family who always have their phones on them that don't respond to your texts. Fuck them. I am so over tip-toeing around this and pretending that it's ok. It's so fucking not ok. How hard is it to just say "OK" in response or "I'll talk later" or "I'm busy" or even "Fuck off". Just something; any sort of response at all would be nice. But people aren't nice, they are fucking assholes.


Merry Christmas!


How was that for a "Welcome Back to my blog posts" start?


It's been a while since I've actually sat down and wrote anything on here. If you're even reading this, you're probably thinking "no shit!"


I've been trying to think about what I want to write for next year and if I even want to blog at all. I know I do, but life is just super busy right now and I am still having the computer issue that I've been complaining about.


I feel bad because I haven't even been reading any of my favorite blogs lately. I feel very out-of-touch. Sometimes when I'm busy I'll at least read some of my tops favs but then just not comment, but lately I haven't even opened up Bloglovin. Asking me to click on a link from FB or Twitter was just way too overwhelming for me to even deal with. It's really hard for me to move my finger over that link. (I'm just now realizing I'm like the aforementioned asshole un-texters but with blog reading)


I was going to make this into a "7 Things" post but that was much too structure to have to follow.


The ironic thing about this is,  I've been feeling really good physically and emotionally lately. I've had some energy, so I've been putting it into my home, family and shop. Usually when I get home from work I want to blow my brains out, but just before I reach for the gun I get a few episodes of Project Runway in.  


I also tried to keep in touch with a few actual humans in my life. Like, for instance, I've been hanging with a few friends and trying to stay connected with family in different ways.


I made Pho too and that took up a good 4 days of my life. I was consumed with all things Pho.


I put up my tree but I'm not even into it yet. I'm still reeling over Halloween. I think that October went by way too fast.


I have been feeling a little bad for myself lately. I realize it's totally and completely childish, but I am sick of friends and family who expect you to support their ventures yet do nothing in return for me. I usually don't even put any thought into it because I truly care about what the people in my life are into. I'm being a huge baby. I know I'll get over it soon. My "balanced" Libra characteristics don't like things that seem to be "unfair" and sometimes I can't get passed it until I get it out. Maybe I can count this as me venting and finally get over it. I've had my shop for over 5 years and I understand that the people closest to you in your life are sometimes the ones that will support you the least. This usual fuels me, but lately I've let it hinder me and I need to stop.


I'm on book 3 of Game of Thrones and it's the best one by far. I have a friend at work that I geek-out over it with and he's on book 4. It sounds like I'm going to have a hard time with it because it doesn't really pick up where the 3rd book left off. It will be interesting to see how the show will turn out next season.


So, I left this post for a quick second to look something up and came across this Mother Teresa quote. I think someone was trying to say something to me.

"People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered.  Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.  Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies.  Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you.  Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight.  Create anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous.  Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, will often be forgotten.  Do good anyway.

Give the best you have, and it will never be enough.  Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God.  It was never between you and them anyway."

Peace out!



kendahl a. said...

I love you, cousin! That quote is great.

Erin Honestly said...

GIRL. I feel you on the support (or lack of) front. Sometimes I just want to scream, WHAT ELSE DO I NEED TO DO TO PROVE MYSELF!?!? to some of the people closest to me. Trust me, most of my friends never ever ever read my blog let alone give a shit that I paint things sometimes.

I'm glad that things are going well for you aside from that though! And you are definitely not being a baby. Sometimes, we fucking need validation.

I love your shop and I wish I had more money so I could buy all of the things! I still have the owl I bought from you here on my desk at work and it makes me smile every time I look at it!