December 30, 2013

2 days left 2013

It gives me anxiety. And my to-do list on my phone is even more jammed packed. I'm a procrastinator. Sometimes it serves in my favor to work under pressure and sometimes it makes me crumble. 

December 27, 2013

Not sorry

I'm not sorry that I am married to one of the good guys.

I'm not sorry that I work hard to be able to buy things that I like.

I'm not sorry that I have an education.

I'm not sorry that my husband is an eternal optimist.

I'm not sorry that when I really want to make something happen I just do it.

I'm not sorry for learning from my mistakes.

I'm not sorry that I have put myself out there when I've really wanted or needed to.

I'm not sorry that I choose not to be a victim.

I'm not sorry I'm not a liar. I am sorry that you are.

I'm not sorry that I have a great family.

I'm not sorry that I have the cutest dog in the world.

I'm not sorry.

December 23, 2013

Holiday status report

7 Things

1. We have not done a holiday card yet this year. I don't know if we will. It's bugging me that we haven't done one and I'm pretty sure it's too fucking late by now. BUT I I think we might do a new year card instead whatever that means. I'm sure I'll make up a good reason for that.

2. Tyrone is unnaturally excited for Christmas this year. I'm trying not to kill his positivity with my usual bahumbug attitude. He's sort rubbing off on me and it's making me break out in a rash.

3. We had a Christmas family dinner at our place last night. Just our parents were able to come but it was really nice. I didn't burn much. Tyrone made them watch the new Superman movie so they could experience the fullness of his man-crush all together. Afterwards we watched Christmas Vacation and I was reveling inside watching my dad laugh at that movie. He REALLY likes it to say the least.

4. My dad is the easiest and hardest person to shop for. It's hard to explain.

5. People at work who leave anonymous treats on your desk during Christmas kind of weirds-me-out. I don't usually do co-worker gifts because it can make things awkward, plus there really isn't anyone I want to buy for if I'm being honest. My friend Jamie was usually the only person I would get anything for but she no longer works with me and I'm still dealing with that emotionally right now. THANKS FOR ASKING!

6. I bought my brother a Kelly Clarkson tee shirt that I found from the thrift store. There is definitely a funny story behind it. That is by far the funnest gift I got for anyone.

7. I finally got a new camera, but I am still learning it, slowly, because I have had NO TIME to really use it. I do love it so far.

December 3, 2013

7 Things

1. Screw you Candy Crush! I curse the day I downloaded you! And now that I am at the point where you're making me ask friends to help with getting more levels I'm going to have to delete you for making me be social and step outside of my comfort zone.

2. If you're following along you know that I finally put up our Christmas tree. I think I lost a box of ornaments somewhere so I had to go out and buy some more black ornaments. Our tree stand, in all it's cheap plastic glory, is on it's last leg. I had to hold up the tree for about thirty minutes last night while Tyrone rigged the stand with some wire. Just as I was finished decorating it the stand broke when I tried to scoot it closer to the wall. I was pissed and I'm quite certain that I'm going to go home to a fallen down tree with broken ornaments and Fred cowardly shaking next to it as if it was his fault. And then I'll notice that he peed in the corner because it literally scared THE PISS out of him.

3. I started listening to Christmas music before Thanksgiving a few times. I had it on in my car when I picked up my friend Jamie for lunch and she so worriedly felt my forehead and asked if I was feeling OK.

4. Fred has some weird bumps on his skin right now and they are making me a little worried because he's never had any issues with his body ever. I need to have them looked at but I'm wondering if I'm overreacting. Plus, with this new job change and all we can't really afford to have him looked at either. He doesn't act like they hurt him or bother him, but I know I should take him in anyways.

5. Our Thanksgiving was nice and lovely and all you would hope for on that glutenous day. No drama.

6. I want to go away on a trip far, far away all by myself.

7. So excited for December 13th when the second part of The Hobbit comes out. We recently just watched all of the Lord of the Rings and the first part of The Hobbit. Tyrone makes fun of me when I put them in or talk about them but then when they are on he gets right into them like a good little fan boy. I remember last year when I started reading the book, The Hobbit, that was a joke. That bookmark is in the same damn place I left it in last October. I suck!

This should probably be number 8 but I just wanted to say that I think Kindles are stupid and I'm never owning one. I don't enjoy reading on a screen. That whole 'may-day" button is ridiculous. How dumb do you have to be to not know how to operate a Kindle? I can imagine the perverts those "may-day" operators have to come across on a daily basis though. The money they must have poured into this campaign too? Sheesh. I like reading actual books, but since I don't do that either anymore I don't know why I even care.

P.S. after much thought I think that it's a good thing that I delete Candy Crush from my phone since Simpsons Tapped Out still takes up large chunk of my time.

P.S.S. it's snowing right now and I don't hate it at the moment...WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME?!

November 26, 2013

Happy Thanksgiving!

This Be The Verse


They fuck you up, your mum and dad.

  They may not mean to, but they do.

They fill you with the faults they had

  And add some extra, just for you.


But they were fucked up in their turn

  By fools in old-style hats and coats,

Who half the time were soppy-stern

  And half at one another's throats.


Man hands on misery to man.

  It deepens like a coastal shelf.

Get out as early as you can,

  And don't have any kids yourself.


-Philip Larkin

7 Things

1. All I can think about right now is eating food on Thanksgiving. I can't even focus at work right now because all I want to do is eat.

2. I am going to make a pecan pie tonight.

3. My nephew Jax is 9 months old and I have not finished his baby blanket yet. I'm thinking it now needs to be upgraded to a toddler blanket because that will be about the time I actually finish it. I started crocheting one when he was born but have not gotten very far with it.

4. I bought some basic black curtains for our bedroom that I planned on hand-stamping a design on them but I can't settle on a design so they might just go up with nothing on them. I bought black because I want our room to be as dark as possible on Saturday and Sunday mornings. I have finally gotten used to the sound of the trains that go by, now I need to deal with the light.

5. Tyrone started a new job today. I hope he is happy at this place. It sounds like it should be really good for him (and us).

6. My psoriasis has been out of control. Usually it just gets red and flacky but it has been so itchy that I want to cry. Tyrone helped me put a coconut oil/tea tree oil treatment on it last night and I was up all night itching it EVEN STILL. I think I need to break and go to a dermatologist.

7. I really want another dog lately but am trying really hard to resist the urge because of time and money - what else? People have babies for less reasons than that so maybe I should just get one anyways.