August 17, 2010

Weekly Confessional - things i don't want you to know about me edition

This week's weekly gut spilling is going to be slightly different this week. I was inspired by this post by Princess Lasertron (i love her name). Be sure you check out her post as well.

In no particular order...

1. I feel like there are people in my life who are close to me that feel they have to 'put up' with me. I feel like an outsider most days.

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2. I love Britney Spears & Shania Twain and because I am that shallow this one was probably the hardest to admit. Seriously.

3. I say I don't care about politics but I really do care a lot about the issues, BUT I keep quiet because there are way too many conservatives in my life. I don't want to be judged for my political views and there are a large amount of people I know who can't look passed that. Also, I think it's a waist of time to get into arguments over politics.

4. I still hold on to bitterness from things that happened to me after I got divorced from my first marriage.

5. The man I was married to mentioned above (about eight/nine years ago) was an emotionally abusive man. He threatened me when I finally told him I was leaving and I stayed out of fear. I hate admitting this because I feel like it makes me appear weak.

6. I've met my biological father once and that was enough for me. I don't want him a part of my life. I feel that he doesn't deserve to have me.

7. I am afraid of large boats like cruise ships or like the ones in the military (I have no idea what they are called). Being next to one gives me so much anxiety. I was in a little glass bottom boat once in Cabo and we had to go right next to an anchored cruise ship and I could barely breathe because it bothered me that bad.

8. When I was 13 I secretly smoked my dads cigarette buds in the shed behind our house.

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9. I don't know all of the multiple times table and don't care if I ever do.

10. If I found out that my ex husband has any kids it would totally crush me. And I understand that there is a huge chance of that being true. He didn't want kids when we were together.

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11. I don't eat peaches because their fuzzy skin creeps me out.

*On a lighter note: Read the 4 Simple Goals I made and feel free to join in yourself (please leave a link I would love to read them) or if you're still celebrating Summer and want a quick little project to keep your hair out of your face then check out this post too!


Oh Honestly Erin said...

I love your honesty, Brandy. The part about feeling like an outsider and being "put up with"? I can relate to that so hard.

You may have felt weak for staying with your first husband, but you're far from that. You're out of that situation now, and in a healthy one! And to be, that's impressive. :)

Kristen said...

I have to say ditto for everything Erin said. You rock, I always get so excited when I see posts from you on my reader!!

Completely have to agree with the politics thing. I work for and with 90% uber republicans and find it easiest to stay quiet. I hate hearing them bash gay marriage or other things that I feel strongly about, but I think career-wise it's best.

P.S. I also hate to admit my like of songs by people such as Britney or Shania.

brandy-son Zen master flash said...

Wow! Thank you so much to both of you.

Elly @ The OCD Chronicles said...

So I'm really annoyed because I had a long comment typed out and my browser decided to drive me crazy and lose it. Take 2...

I think it's awesome that you make a habit of confessing things that you are embarrassed to admit. When I started my blog, I promised myself I'd be honest. There are still things I am hiding, though. A couple of weeks ago, I started thinking about adding a weekly (or so) confession to my routine. I haven't gotten around to it, but this has inspired me to get on it... tomorrow!

Also, I completely relate to feeling like people have to put up with me. I feel like this most of the time about my family and those closest to me. I hate it! It's so isolating!

Jennikunz said...

ewh.. Shania! I have to admit everytime she comes on shuffle on my ipod.. I skip her.
Love you though!

brandy-son Zen master flash said...

Jennikunz - I am so glad you love me "inspite" of me liking Shania....jeez. Out of everything I posted here it's funny that's the one thing you comment on.

Elly - thank you for your comment. I'm sorry you had trouble with your first one. It is really hard to be honest when you're typing...does that make sense? I can spin things when I write any way I want. It's very manipulative this whole blog world. We only show our audience what we want to. Out of all of the things I talk about on my blog when I am honest and raw is when I get the best response from people....well that and giveaways....haha!

darleneismean said...

I learned just last week that nectarines are just peaches without the fuzz. IT CHANGED MY LIFE!

Jennikunz said...

haha... I wanted to comment on number 8. I remember smoking my first and last cig with you. (sigh)

brandy-son Zen master flash said...

Darleneismean - I LOVE nectarines - they kick peaches ass!!

Jennikunz - ah, weren't we in the drive way of my parents house. I remember Kathy being there. Ha!