September 14, 2010

Weekly Confessional


One year ago from this month we were going through this crap. It has been lingering hard-core and causing some internal emotional grief. Last year I was laying down on a bench at the truck pulls during the State Fair in pain because I was miscarrying for the second time. I don't want to go to the Fair this year because of it. My nephews birthday is coming up, he'll be one year and I am very happy for that but it's also means it's been another year and we're in the same place. Nothing has changed. We're in the same small place, Tyrone is struggling for work, I'm still at the same shitty job and still no baby. I'm a little happy that the baby thing hasn't worked out, it's just that the emotional turmoil that happened last year has not completely gone away. Even as I type this I am getting emotional because I have not healed all of the way.

Things still suck. We're still taking it day by day. One of these days Tyrone and I are going to pull a Thelma and Louise if something doesn't change.

6 comments:

Kendahl, Stepmom Extraordinaire said...

:( I'm sorry! I wish I could help in some way but I know how bad it sucks.

You should come to the fair though, because I'll be there. :)

Kristen said...

Sending happy thoughts your direction! Should be there shortly assuming none of those Nebraska people steal them!

brandy-son Zen master flash said...

Thanks for the positive thoughts. I'm just being a huge poopie pants.

Kristen said...

And rightfully so! Everybody deserves to poop their pants sometimes. ;-)

Oh Honestly Erin said...

That's a huge tragedy to overcome, so I agree with Kristen in that you definitely have a right to be a poopie pants. I'm sorry that happened to you, and I hope that things get easier for you. Sometimes, it doesn't seem like things will ever change. Just..don't pull the Thelma and Louise just yet. <3

brandy-son Zen master flash said...

Man, thanks Erin.