September 14, 2010
One year ago from this month we were going through this crap. It has been lingering hard-core and causing some internal emotional grief. Last year I was laying down on a bench at the truck pulls during the State Fair in pain because I was miscarrying for the second time. I don't want to go to the Fair this year because of it. My nephews birthday is coming up, he'll be one year and I am very happy for that but it's also means it's been another year and we're in the same place. Nothing has changed. We're in the same small place, Tyrone is struggling for work, I'm still at the same shitty job and still no baby. I'm a little happy that the baby thing hasn't worked out, it's just that the emotional turmoil that happened last year has not completely gone away. Even as I type this I am getting emotional because I have not healed all of the way.
Things still suck. We're still taking it day by day. One of these days Tyrone and I are going to pull a Thelma and Louise if something doesn't change.